How Anxiety Rules My Life…

I have had anxiety since I can remember. I remember worrying so much as a child and not knowing why I thought about everything so much. There have been many stepping stones to get me to the point where I am today. I am the farthest person from an expert on anxiety but I want to share my typical anxious day.  Many people think that you can just turn anxiety off but I can’t (No one who has anxiety can) because it is on constant replay inside my head 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.



Many people who have anxiety have certain triggers which send you into anxiety “attacks”
to which you have no control of. My triggers are my children or husband getting sick, my family husband & children being out of the house, worries that someone I love may die, my home being messy or dirty and being out in public having to touch things that in my head most likely has the germ that just might kill me. I am a self  diagnosed a germ-a-phobe. Even though logically I know that a lot of my anxious thoughts are irrational I can not turn off the anxiety what-so-ever. The stigma on anxiety needs to be spoken about so that people understand how hard it is to live with it every single day.

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